Yesterday, I received a phone call that I never expected to get. On the other end of the line was the adoption agency we have been working with. She told me that a birth mom was on her way to the hospital and was giving birth. We were given an hour to make the decision and had very little information. I called Justin & we both decided to take the hour to pray! We each had someone that we were able to talk to and were praying with us. Near the end of the hour, Justin called me and asked how I felt. I honestly had no idea. Part of me wanted to say yes and part of me wanted to say no. Justin told me he had no peace about saying yes. We made our decision and I called our agency back. Never in my wildest dreams would I ever imagine that I would say no to a baby. After ending our conversation I knew without hesitation that we made the right decision.
This morning, I woke up and reached for my phone. My normal routine is to turn off my alarm and then to get in the shower. However, this morning something in me said to check my email. I received an email late last night from the agency. In the email, she told me that we made the right decision and that she is glad we listened to our "gut". Last night, that sweet baby went to be with Jesus. I am so thankful that God told us "no" and that we listened. Today I am praising God for sparing me the hurt and pain that this loss could have brought. I am praising Him for His grace and peace that only He can give. My heart breaks for that birth mom and I am asking for you all to pray for comfort that only Christ can give her.
Through every experience, I have learned lessons. I have learned very difficult lessons and experienced great joy through our journey. Today, God reminded me how much He loves me and that He is still in control!!
We are still praying and believing that baby number 2 is on their way! We are praying for not just a baby but the RIGHT baby!
This morning, I woke up and reached for my phone. My normal routine is to turn off my alarm and then to get in the shower. However, this morning something in me said to check my email. I received an email late last night from the agency. In the email, she told me that we made the right decision and that she is glad we listened to our "gut". Last night, that sweet baby went to be with Jesus. I am so thankful that God told us "no" and that we listened. Today I am praising God for sparing me the hurt and pain that this loss could have brought. I am praising Him for His grace and peace that only He can give. My heart breaks for that birth mom and I am asking for you all to pray for comfort that only Christ can give her.
Through every experience, I have learned lessons. I have learned very difficult lessons and experienced great joy through our journey. Today, God reminded me how much He loves me and that He is still in control!!
We are still praying and believing that baby number 2 is on their way! We are praying for not just a baby but the RIGHT baby!
