This past Wednesday my whole world came crashing down around me. I received a message from our birth mom. The birth dad was in the picture and was wanting the baby. My heart sank and I couldn't breathe. I sent a message to the attorneys office and quickly received a phone call back. They proceeded to tell me that the birth dad was wanting custody. For the past week and a half I was waiting for the phone call telling me that the birth mom was in labor. Now, I have to figure out how to pick up the pieces.
I am broken. I desperately wanted to add to our family. I wanted to see Hannah as a big sister and to complete our family. However, God reminded me that it is all in His timing. Constantly I'm having to remind myself that I need to praise Him in the storm. Part of me wants to throw the towel in and say we're done. I don't want to go through this pain again. I'm tired of walking this road and having it end in a broken heart. However, I know my God is bigger than this. I know that God has a plan for our family and has a plan for this journey. Hannah might be our only child and we are okay with that but we cannot allow our pain to scare us away from what God has planned for us. For now, we began to heal. We will lean on each other, our family, our friends, and more importantly on God!
Friends, please know that God does have a plan for you. His timing is perfect. Yes, this hurts and I don't understand why we have to go through this again. However, I also know that God is carrying us through this time. I'm not giving up hope and my prayer today is that you don't either. Whatever you're waiting on, just know that God will come through in the perfect time.
